abigail grace.

that with a little prayer and a simple act of forgivness one could finally find peace!

I have fought and fought with my sister for years. For the last 2-3 years,  Sis has been the rude, ungrateful, bitchy prodigal daughter (and sibling). Where I on the other hand have been the “perfect”, pride filled child. Seriously we have both struggled with each other for yonks. I despised the way she treated Mum and Dad and also for the way she spoke to me. I could never understand why. How does a civil conversation turn into a psycho cat fight literally at the drop of a hat. Well, now I can sort of understand. It’s not so much that I understand but I can piece together how she came to be the way she is. I am not ashamed to come right out and say my sister is drug addict, because it is the truth. I don’t understand how people get all embarrassed and ashamed. When someone close to you is in dire need of help, why pretend like there’s no problem? In my humble opinion, the more people that know, the merrier! If people don’t know there is a problem and that you need prayer, it’s simple for obvious reasons that they don’t pray. DER!

Anyway getting back to my original point of prayer and forgiveness…. I had been harbouring resentment towards my sister, BIG TIME. Like, praying for her was a chore big time. How bad is that, huh! I don’t know why but I never prayed to God to help me with the situation. I prayed for the ‘rents and the sibs, but never for Him to grant me the patience to deal with my pride, pride, pride. The more I type it, the more I realise how much pride I actually have! I feel sick knowing how proud I am! (not just with my sister issues- with sport, looks, everything! But this is all for another day, there’s only so much self ragging I can take!)

Oh em gee, I keep swaying from my original point! Okay, long story short. My friend told me to grow up and stop being that annoying perfect brother just like in the story of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32). Great friend, huh? No serious, great friend. She could totally see the slippery slope I was sliding down and she knows that that’s not what’s in my heart. Well, this got me thinking of how bad I was? After much soul searching (okay I lie, it didn’t take much searching at all. I knew straight away how bad I was!) I decided to finally give it all up. All of it. I prayed, prayed, had dinner, prayed and then prayed some more and yep, pretty much instantly felt this feeling called…peace. Heck, I even thought about buying her a new shirt whilst I was out shopping. Now what’s up with that!

Not only since I’ve been praying, but also my lovely group of friends, things have taken a turn for the better. Sis is off to a Christian rehab center to get healthy, we haven’t fought since “The Praying” (I am totes making  movie outta this) and OH MY GOSH she gave thanks for dinner tonight. OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH. This is coming from my sis who has non-verbally taken an oath of anti God following, anti God everything…okay anti anything nice, there I said it. I wouldn’t be surprised if we had of found an eye of neut stash hidden away in her room…

Moral of the story? God. Easy, right?…not! I have followed Jesus since I was a freshly budding teenager and I’m still learning how to apply all of this to my own life. As followers of Jesus, I don’t think we ever stop learning or making mistakes.

I love my family, my brothers and sisters in the lord and most of all I love Him. Words can’t explain how I am feeling at the moment- so free, so peaceful, no cares in world!